With these rainy days, suddenly my emotions also start raining. Teardrops on my cheek. I mirror my hearts desire and feel like a true Drama Queen. I know I have to let go, but you know how damned difficult that is. Once again I nurture the memories of deep devotion and intense passion. And although I know we can never be, I cherish the moments spent together.
Just a few weeks ago a good friend of mine asked me: “Is it the person you love or the symbol you have created of that person?” This remark got me wondering and to tell you the truth I really don’t know. What if I really have created that ideal person and it feels safe to hang on to that ideal? Cause that would mean that there still is a wall keeping me from falling in love all over again. Do you want to tear down the wall or to be alone? I own responsibility for the baggage I have chosen to carry but I am ready to lay the weight of a burden where it belongs in order to transform and open up. But for only one, really last time I will be the Drama Queen and maybe one day you will again find yourself looking in my eyes without wondering anymore what these eyes tell you.