Kiss my tears away

What does it hurts me now,
for I never learned to express myself.
When in pain I crawled back into my shell
Being happy then there were only a few
I could share it with.
But now I’m
and happy and sad.
I really would like to tell you,
but just don’t know how.
And yet it hurts me so much,
every time you leave
without knowing my greater love for you.
Please understand from my gestures
how much I love you and how much
I rather be near you forever.